[ it happens too fast, from kaz's slick hand on his cock to the words whispered between them in the dark, eyes fluttering shut as if he can somehow protect himself from what feels like an unraveling. you have me still, in time with his hips stuttering into kaz's firm touch, a muffled groan falling past his lips. he grips the metal in hand, surprise coloring his features. tell me that's what you want. saints, is this how he sounded when he'd insisted on making kaz ask for everything? the depth of his desire can't be put into words, and neither can he explain that he can't without giving himself away. to tell kaz what he really wants would be giving voice to a ridiculous fantasy they both know can never come to pass. a little longer isn't enough and it will never be.
his oiled fingers spread kaz open, the resistance nearly gone. can't wait any longer, not with kaz working him over like this. he rises quickly, pushing kaz onto his back and pinning him to the bed, his mouth immediately brushing over his jaw, nuzzling beneath his ear, planting warm kisses down his throat. like he'll never be close enough. why does it always feel like this, like this moment will slip through his fingers with one wrong touch, the tick of the clock so loud in his head? it was a countdown in fjerda and it's the same now, even with kaz promising him more time. his sandy lashes brush over kaz's heated cheeks as his eyes open. he has to stay in this moment. it's the only way he can do this.
he draws kaz's legs around his waist, crushing their mouths together in a long kiss. you didn't let go. he didn't. he couldn't. he's tethered to kaz brekker whether he wants to be or not, and even when he thinks it might be better if he wasn't, he knows that's not true. he knows he wouldn't be here right now if not for this wretched tether. ]
Stay. [ a familiar refrain now, as he lifts kaz's hips to press into him, painstakingly careful, his brows drawn tight as he breathlessly watches kaz's face. briefly, his eyes squeeze shut, tight heat enveloping him. his fingers dig into the sheets as he drops his forehead to kaz's temple. ] Stay with me. Don't go. Just — a little longer. [ his hips shudder with one last push, flush against him. he forces himself to be still, brushing a kiss to kaz's ear, feeling the tension radiating from his body. he brings a hand down to gently ease along kaz's thigh, coaxing him to relax. ] It's okay. Hold onto me. You still have me, too.
[ a promise. an atonement. maybe it won't be enough. one night is hardly enough to make amends, to rebuild this broken trust. his fingers brush over kaz's cheek, a tremor in his blackened fingertips. his hips rock ever so slightly, a spark of pleasure igniting between them. ]
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his oiled fingers spread kaz open, the resistance nearly gone. can't wait any longer, not with kaz working him over like this. he rises quickly, pushing kaz onto his back and pinning him to the bed, his mouth immediately brushing over his jaw, nuzzling beneath his ear, planting warm kisses down his throat. like he'll never be close enough. why does it always feel like this, like this moment will slip through his fingers with one wrong touch, the tick of the clock so loud in his head? it was a countdown in fjerda and it's the same now, even with kaz promising him more time. his sandy lashes brush over kaz's heated cheeks as his eyes open. he has to stay in this moment. it's the only way he can do this.
he draws kaz's legs around his waist, crushing their mouths together in a long kiss. you didn't let go. he didn't. he couldn't. he's tethered to kaz brekker whether he wants to be or not, and even when he thinks it might be better if he wasn't, he knows that's not true. he knows he wouldn't be here right now if not for this wretched tether. ]
Stay. [ a familiar refrain now, as he lifts kaz's hips to press into him, painstakingly careful, his brows drawn tight as he breathlessly watches kaz's face. briefly, his eyes squeeze shut, tight heat enveloping him. his fingers dig into the sheets as he drops his forehead to kaz's temple. ] Stay with me. Don't go. Just — a little longer. [ his hips shudder with one last push, flush against him. he forces himself to be still, brushing a kiss to kaz's ear, feeling the tension radiating from his body. he brings a hand down to gently ease along kaz's thigh, coaxing him to relax. ] It's okay. Hold onto me. You still have me, too.
[ a promise. an atonement. maybe it won't be enough. one night is hardly enough to make amends, to rebuild this broken trust. his fingers brush over kaz's cheek, a tremor in his blackened fingertips. his hips rock ever so slightly, a spark of pleasure igniting between them. ]