i can't blame you for that. even i didn't know i was real.
[ as though a lifelong trance had finally ruptured, dragging her kicking and screaming into her reality. kaz brekker is a representation of too much change, the shift from her old lfe into this new nightmare she still sometimes selfishly wishes she could banish. ]
loyalty can't be bought. not the kind i'm looking for, anyway. you've seen how they followed kirigan.
[ how they still bent and bowed in the face of his order, an audience to her enslavement. loyalty is too weak a word for that depthless, deadly devotion. (it roils her stomach, a churning wave, to imagine how that drive for his acceptance and lavish praise had left her so blind in the prison he had created for her. ) ]
honestly? i don't know. mal and i will figure it out. it's not like we haven't scrubbed dirty floors to get by before.
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[ hm, doesn't like the way he worded it, exactly, though she is real. frightfully so. should have said he didn't know she was worth more. ]
Most allies and friends can be bought.
[ that's better. more callous. (a few need to be true, he's learned recently. it sits uneasy on his shoulders.) ]
They'll cover what I need them to, which is enough.
How will you pay your way without them?
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[ as though a lifelong trance had finally ruptured, dragging her kicking and screaming into her reality. kaz brekker is a representation of too much change, the shift from her old lfe into this new nightmare she still sometimes selfishly wishes she could banish. ]
loyalty can't be bought. not the kind i'm looking for, anyway. you've seen how they followed kirigan.
[ how they still bent and bowed in the face of his order, an audience to her enslavement. loyalty is too weak a word for that depthless, deadly devotion. (it roils her stomach, a churning wave, to imagine how that drive for his acceptance and lavish praise had left her so blind in the prison he had created for her. ) ]
honestly? i don't know. mal and i will figure it out.
it's not like we haven't scrubbed dirty floors to get by before.